Why I Built This Site

I did not suddenly decide to build a website.

If you know someone who has had social accounts for years but barely posts anything, someone who almost never shares their life online and cannot even be bothered to change their profile picture, you may understand me a little.

Why don’t I post?

I have thought about this many times. The answer is probably split in two: half disdain, half defeat.

The disdain is that I have always felt slightly different from other people. Maybe my zodiac sign, my birth chart, or whatever symbolic system you prefer, is simply “different” itself. I do not want to drift with the crowd. I do not want to become one more identical voice on the internet.

The defeat is more practical: I have not received the pass that the real world usually hands to people it calls successful.

And yet, I need to record things.

I need to record those wildly unrelated sparks of thought, and this rather dramatic life of mine. You might say: why not just keep a diary?

Fair.

But I am lazy. I need a little external pressure. More importantly, I want my thoughts, my perception, and my values to reach a few people, even if only a few.

In real life, I am a solitary person. Or maybe the more accurate word is proud.

If you ask me what my dream is, my answer in primary school was: president of the United Nations. Later I grew up and realized that title probably did not mean much.

Now, if I am being honest, I would say: I want to save humanity.

Call it childish, naive, spiritual awakening, or simply unrealistic. I don’t mind.

But wanting to save humanity cannot remain a slogan.

At least for now, it may not mean doing something grand. It may simply mean building a place where I can keep my observations of the world.